It's been a little bit since I have been here. I'm trying to get ready mentally, physically, organizationally for my surgery next Tuesday. I think the end may be in sight!
I don't have much to share. I've been thinking back on events of the past few months, emotions, thoughts, etc. I am now thinking, "What was the big deal anyway?" Must not have been thinking very rationally even though I thought that I was. Kind of interesting to "observe" my own actions, thoughts, etc. But I think it's a good thing to keep in mind as I interact with others who are going thru things, whatever they are. I think I will be more compassionate and empathetic. I even found real hospital discharge instructions the other day. If you think back a long time ago, I had been given instructions, but they were the wrong ones. I told the nurse that when she asked if I had them. She then tore the incision care instruction off of that packet, put them in my folder, and must have gone out to get the appropriate ones. Probably handed them to Scott and they went in a bag or pocket or something and I didn't remember that she had given them to us. I guess first impressions are pretty darned important. I know that really stuck with me. I still would like to be available to others to help them with good resources and information - that would have saved me lots of time and energy in research - after all the decisions had already been made.
My pre-op appt. was last week. Figured out which "parts" to order. Learned I'd probably need replacement parts before I droop, even on the left side. I can view that both in a positive or negative light. It means another surgery some day. It means I'll never? have to worry about droopiness again. I think that we are on the same page regarding my goals for my appearance after surgery is done. I am confident that the dr. will do the best he can to get things to look symmetrical.
For the last couple of weeks I've been wearing a nylon knee high filled with rice in the size of the maybe implant tied off on both ends on the left. It makes things look pretty even. Figured I might as well try out my new size.
I'm learning many new things in my new job. I kind of feeling like my clarity is diminishing the closer I get to my surgery. There are many details and we use many references to complete one review. I have a great trainer - very patient, excellent at following process and helping me to use my tools.
This past weekend we toured several studios participating in the Portland Open Studios event. I didn't get to see all the specific places I was interested in, but we focused more on the east side of town and did see some things that we really enjoyed. The Mr. is desiring that I find a new tour partner for next year!
http://www.portlandopenstudios.com/news/a-preview-of-artists-from-portland-open-studios-2011/
Saw the top and bottom studios/artists.
http://www.portlandtribune.com/features/story.php?story_id=131724181518477700
We haven't had a working furnace since March. The dates for installation are set - 10/26 & 27. Can you just imagine what it will be like to have a heat source bigger than a space heater? I'm very excited for it to be in place.
My big day - 10/25 1pm. I'm very eager to have it behind me. I've been trying to get to my "quiet place" but I'm having a hard time finding it or getting there. I don't know what I did the last time that worked so well for me. Mhmmm. Let me know if you remember.
I'll be off for 2+ weeks, but I have so many quiet projects to do I may not actually have enough time to get them all finished. We are going to set a work table up in the living room for me to do my work at - anything from jewelry to scanning slides. Hopefully I won't need to do much napping. I anticipate that I will have more pain this time as the left breast will have sensation, while the right did not after my last surgery and still probably won't have much after this one. I will definitely get my prescription filled. First 2 weeks - no lifting, stretching, or driving. 3rd week, no stretching. Anything goes after 4 weeks. Guess I should wait until the 5th week to do my fall pruning if I don't get it done this weekend. Do you have any thoughts on that? I understand that if I stretch or do forbidden activities that I may end up bleeding and have to go back into surgery. Well, that's not a place I want to go, so it will be really easy for me to be good.
No photos, jokes or creative postings today. I'm too rational and logical to come up with anything. It's not nearly as much fun for me, but I imagine I'm more tolerable to have/be around. Thanks to all of you who have listened to and read my ramblings. I have appreciated your support ever so much. Let me change that - I do appreciate your support ever so much.
Well... you will be hearing from me next week. Take care.
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