Week 10 - Almost full up!

Greetings from Puddletown where the sun has been shining and the weather warm, for 2 whole days.

I am getting close to pretty darn full up!

This last Wed. at 310 cc, I had 90 cc to go to 400. So I suggested we try 45 cc this time instead of 30-40. It was a stretch... Still looks tight but we only have 45 to go, and so I'm willing to try for that this coming Wed. again. Lots of fullness above the nipple line, not quite as much below. I've seen a research project on clinicaltrials.gov addressing just that challenge. You can't tell here that there is more fullness above on the left, and not so much on the right. It's hanging down not up!

Asymmetry at week 10

We talked about a lift procedure that Dr. is considering for the left and the placement of the implant. Crescent lift with implant subglandular for a more natural look. I am thinking about this - with a bra I'd look well balanced. Not sure that's the case without a bra. And that goes for the sports tops that I wear with the built in bra-shelf as well. I thought that we were going for a larger incision with a bigger lift. Kind of threw me off. How can I look natural with one fake looking breast and one more natural looking breast? And what will that do to my opportunities to dance for additional income? Or my biker babe image if I have to wear a structured bra at all times? I should be able to get dressed and not wear a bra. That's my bottom line.

I had taken photos in to the Dr. of implanted breasts to give an idea of what size I wanted to be. It's hard, because I don't like the look of implanted breasts, and even though you have the opportunity to put in height and weight range, there aren't any results that fit those for me. So you can't say add a 200 cc implant and you will look like this. It depends on height, weight, shape and width of chest and your original breast. Dr. responded with how women often bring pictures in which he didn't find helpful because it is so individual. I said, "Ok. I don't like them either, I'll take them and trash them." I know I've talked about not wanting an augmented look because it looks so fake. I think that's why he took the natural look approach.

I took information about a surgeon at OHSU who does a microvascular breast reconstruction technique. That makes 2 now that I know of. Dr. found it of interest and thought it was good to know of another option in town.

I can't be the only woman who has ever had a challenge communicating what is important to me. But then I have changed my mind more than once, and may not convey a complete thought during one visit. I call it boob brain. Yes, I am guilty of at least 3 months of boob brain. I need to get down to some basic logic. I have started a table with my must have, nice to have, the 4 lift procedures that I am aware of. pros, cons, etc. I was going to fill it all out myself, but realized I may not have all the info, so will take it in with me on Wed. and try to get on the same wave length.

I am to bring a bra in that fits the right breast this next week so we can see how much we can fit in the left. By this time the last VS bras I bought are not fitting, so I returned them. No, I didn't wear them, I only tried them on. Bought a 34 C today. Not sure if I like that, but maybe I won't need that one in the end. I am prepared to return it after my "fitting" this week.

Positive Images
I tried to show you but can't pull it off. Butterflies over breasts. I can still think about it though.

Creative
Photo above with balloons. Don't tell me I'm wimping out. It was a rough week. Short nights, waking up at lord knows what time and not going back to sleep.

Humor 
Photo above with balloons. Or, you may not think this funny, but Mr. and I were out motorcycle riding today and we had stopped for a break. I told him to come sit by me so I could hear him, but told him if he got too close he ran the risk of getting poked with a really pointy breast! I laughed and laughed out loud 'cuz I thought I was so funny! Mr. had a slight grin on his face.

Good stuff
We rode motorcycle on Sat. Went about 215 miles. It was good - my skill is rusty but oh, the roar of that motor when accelerating is so good. No, not a Harley - not quite that flatulent. But good.  We went to this place I read about recently - "Wings of Wonder" south of Independence. Check it out. http://www.wingsofwonder.us/index.htm
A former Intel employee and  his wife were interested in tropical butterflies and started an exhibit. Wow. The blue morpho was fantastic. Irridescent blue in flight but when it lands it closes its wings. Hard if not impossible to get a photo when in flight. Pretty darned cool. My creative idea was to paste a butterfly over my lop-sided self but that didn't work out so well. But look what we saw. It was warm inside, chaps on, sweat dripping down my back into my jeans, and.....

Butterflies

Our route took us from Portland, to Canby for breakfast with Dad, to Woodburn, Mt. Angel, Silverton, Silver Falls, Sublimity, Stayton, Scio, Albany, Buena Vista, Independence, Monmouth - lunch and some work on Mr's bike. Dallas, Rickreal, Amity, Dundee, Sherwood, Newberg, Tigard, Portland. And the traffic at Dundee. Remind us never to go that way thru Dundee on a weekend. We were tired when we got home.  I get kind of sloppy at the end of a ride. Even though we got home early enough to cook we were too fatigued to eat dinner.

Today another ride. Another warm day. We went to Mehri's for breakfast. Quiche, fruit and her very yummy creamy potatoes. Out Foster Rd. to Damascus, Boring, Sandy, Estacada, Molalla, Silverton, Mt. Angel, Woodburn, then back into the country and back roads to 213 to Oregon City, 205 then home. A good ride. I'm trying to improve my techniques and riding skills for smoother safer riding.

It's great - no pain or irritation while riding. I didn't notice that my pectoral muscle flexed when I opened the throttle or braked as I noticed last weekend when we rode. I was riding my 700 Shadow this weekend, 250 Rebel last weekend. Maybe that was the difference.

It's a great way to erase the boob brain-ness, riding motorcycle. It's hard to think about work, breasts, or anything else that takes your mind off of scents, traffic, road surface, curves and safety. I smelled mint, berries, evergreen trees, smells of combining grass/grain, manure, and, I can't remember what else. Many childhood scents.

Biker chick on the road
Molalla, strange town, interesting people. Not this one but all the rest. We did have a very friendly waitress at the Hitchin' Post.

If I didn't have my jacket on, you could see my shape! But I do, so you can't tell.
Protective gear as appropriate. No breast shield though.

We are thinking of a short motorcycle camping trip before the end of the summer.

So, look for me again next weekend. Another fill-up, more bike riding, and maybe nothing more than that. You'll know just about as much as I about my next surgery date at that point and then we will wait together for two months for that date!